As I mentioned in yesterday's post, I was ready to face the music after a week of buffets. I felt that I just didn't use the excuse it was vacation time and I could go wild but I thought ahead and made some plans to hopefully hold my own.
Yesterday was a weird day. Of course it was hard getting up and heading off to work. It is ... even when I haven't had over a week off. But something just wasn't in sync. I had this cloud hanging over my head where something just wasn't right. Nothing was going wrong but I felt that I had to be very careful not to screw anything up. Maybe that's a good thing to slow me down, to double check things, and not to make rash judgments. But for some reason I felt uncomfortable walking in my own shoes.
It was a yucky day, it was raining when I left for work and later, I remember while in my boss' office, I looked out and saw these big snowflakes. I don't think I'm ready for this. With it looking dark and gloomy, I just ate lunch at my desk which would help my weigh-in, but I really should have gotten out and walked. Walking always comforts me.
I kept pretty busy and the day flew by and it was time to go to my TOPS meeting. We are now meeting in a new place which didn't help my mood. Even though the people were the same, the setting was strange and unfamiliar. On the way to the meeting, I questioned my ability as a leader. I really hadn't prepared a program for the meeting and felt I wasn't doing that good of a job in the role to which I was elected. I'm telling you it was a weird day.
It was time to weigh in and I was a bit nervous but knew I wasn't going to have that normal huge vacation gain, so I was pleased about that. The weight didn't bang against the top, so I knew that was good. I did have a loss of 1/4# which was fine. It was something to build on. My meeting really went great. I brought an article I printed out right before I left the office to read about eating habits and got a lot of participation and even shared some things I was faced with on vacation. It was a good weigh in, a good meeting and I guess it turn out to be a good day, even though it was a little weird.