FEAR SETTING IN

Well we're home safely.  We got in about 11:00 p.m. last night and I couldn't wait to sleep in my own bed.  I didn't blog the last couple of days even though I know how important that is, so it's one of the few things that I needed to make a priority today.  When I don't post, I find I don't walk the straight and narrow.  It's like I'm not going to write tomorrow, so I can have that cookies or serving of macaroni and cheese.  I don't plan it that way but that's the way it turns out.  We were pretty busy on Thursday and I was just about ready to post when Gary called to meet up with him and then yesterday we were in the car and I thought I could blog from my Kindle but then found I couldn't.

I did try, more than I had during other vacations to stay aware of what I was eating.  I was successful in keeping my eating at meals with no snacking.  I feel good about my success there.  I wanted to be able to enjoy a glass of wine in the room to relax so I refrained from any of the free drinks available in the casino.  I tried to remain active and I felt pretty good about using the hotel facilities to exercise and I couldn't help but do a lot of walking but was it enough.  I wanted to keep a balance of remembering I was on vacation and it was to be an enjoyable time and not one where I was telling myself that I couldn't have this or that.  However, as each day passed, I truly felt I was slipping and I wasn't as diligent as I was the day before ending up eating too much at my meals.

Now this morning, part of me wants to see if any damage was done and the other side of me just can't face the music.  I'm trying to get the mindset that it's no big deal whatever the scale says.  If I gained, so be it.  I will be back to walking the straight and narrow starting now.  So, the decision is to wait until tomorrow when I don't feel so puffy and maybe eliminate some water.