CHANGES

I got up yesterday morning, showered and then tried to figure out what I was going to wear to work. I wish I was more like my daughter who is organized and lays out her clothes the night before. Anyway, I pulled a pair of black slacks out of the closet and noticed how loose they felt, especially in the thighs. Things are starting to change. I'm in my fifth week this go round and am I now seeing physical results? I'm far from being a size smaller but things are looser. I must admit that everything that I COULD wear was getting to the point of being very tight and uncomfortable both on my body and in my head. So, I'm thinking SUCCESS and maybe it won't be long until I will be wearing some things that don't fit now.

On MYFitnessPal, I've picked up a few friends and a couple of them have asked for me to make my food diary public.  I am very hesitant about doing this and don't know exactly why ... OR maybe I do.  I don't eat tofu, spouts and brown rice.  I eat what I want in the portion size that will allow me to keep my calorie count down which in turns lets me enjoy what I eat.  Yes, I enjoy eating ... I do not "Eat to Live".  I'm not at that point yet.  I don't know if I ever will be.  Maybe I feel guilty about that because most of the blogs I read ... people seem to be pushing that, if they're open about their food intake.  The same thing about eating out.  Yes, I do a lot of that too, but right now I am in control and it doesn't matter if I eat at home or McDonald's, it's all about what I choose and how much I have.  Maybe it's the pull between what do I want to do ... lose weight or eat healthy.  It's not that I don't want to eat healthy or that I'm not eating healthy or that I could do better consuming more fruits and vegetables.  Right now it's about losing those extra unhealthy pounds on my body.  I'm more likely to stick to my plan eating things I like.  Like I said before, I'm a people pleaser and I don't want to have anyone think any less of me because of what I choose to eat ... but then I ask myself why do you care? ... you know that what works for one person doesn't always work for everyone.  I realize too that it may help them in their planning, trying something out, etc., but I don't think I'm a typical dieter ... or even want to call myself a dieter; and I really don't think seeing my menu will be a help to anyone.  So I guess I've come to a decision.  It will remain my little secret, although if anyone asks about something I mentioned, like one of  Gary's delicious recipes, I'd be open to discussing it.