My weigh-in was last night and as I mentioned yesterday I knew I would have a good loss. I don't know why I couldn't just leave it at that. I immediately had to start doing the math of what my loss needed to be taking into account my last weigh in, when I had a gain of 3 1/2#'s.
I couldn't weigh in on my "OFFICIAL" scale last week because we were out of state so there was a two-week gap. With my gain and the average of 1# per week loss I've been using as my goal, I figured I needed to lose at least 5 1/2# to hit the bulls eye. My loss last night was 5# ... whoo-hoo! I am pleased with it. I didn't hit the bulls eye but being a hair away can still win the prize.
This morning, I pulled out my trusty yet dusty notebook that I have all my stats in and find that I started this blog on June 21 which was 12 weeks ago and I have lost 13 pounds, so that means I'm still on pace of the 1# per week loss. Not a huge amount but at a clip I thought I could keep up and not get easily frustrated. I know I have to look at the positives. I could easily go back and do some fuzzy math and come out with a different average if I used the beginning of the year but I wasn't giving my entire effort during some of those months. However, if I use the beginning of the year, I'll have a larger total loss of 17 pounds, which sounds better than 13 ... why do I do this? Why do I have such an obsession with numbers? Why don't I bring out the measuring tape too ... there's numbers on it. It is an obsession, isn't it ... I've got to get away from that ... how do I do that and stay vigilant.
Yesterday was a tough day and I'm even having a bit of a telltale grey Tuesday. Something is just not in sync. I feel really on the outside looking in and disconnected. When I have those kind of days I go searching and blog reading is sometimes helpful but sometimes not so much. So many are doing so great and pulling huge numbers and I am inspired by their motivation and perseverance but yet have a tendency to feel left behind and wonder if I'm doing enough. Others are struggling and are being criticized for using the wrong plan, not being steadfast in their efforts or being a dreamer. I guess you've just got to take it all in and decide what's best for you. Act on what inspires you and throw the other stuff aside. As Tammy said and as I have heard so many others say, sometimes it's better just to take one day at a time. While not always getting there, practice brings you closer to perfect and I'll continue practicing each and every day to choose what I eat wisely and continue being as active as I can, even if I can't always get to a gym..