Yesterday my boss called in on his way to the office and asked if I'd go pick up some lunch for the two of us and a couple of other co-workers. He asked that I go to Shapiro's. Indy's great Jewish deli. They have huge sandwiches and macaroni and cheese to die for (and you probably would if you ate enough of this artery clogging cheesy delicacy). My initial reaction was panic. What was I going to do? I had my day planned out with exactly how many points I was going to write down which even included a treat in the evening. I thought about the mac n cheese and my mouth started to water ... I could probably work all this into my plan and have a light dinner. Gary was fixing pork chops, au gratin potatoes and green beans It was going to be a very nice dinner and if I had my usual from Shapiro's, it meant that I could have ONLY the green beans. Is that how I really wanted to eat? Just because I was the one picking up the lunch didn't mean I had to participate in it ... and I chose not to for a change. In times past, I would be screaming ... it's not fair. I find today that I don't care if it's fair or not. It's what I wanted to do and I had the power to do it and I'm proud of that.
The following is something that a friend on my TOPS loop sent that I need to keep available for times like yesterday.
Life is NOT "Supposed to be Fair." Know that there is no single way that
life is "supposed" to be. Demanding that life meet our expectations is a
sure fire recipe for a miserable existence. Life is a game with no rules. Life
just happens to us regardless of our best intentions. Our only path to
happiness lies in being open to receiving whatever life throws at us - with
Gratitude. Have NO Expectations of life.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie