It was a dark, dreary morning yesterday and I had to drag myself out of bed and I was moving pretty slow. I was just going through the motions not fully awake until I stepped on the scale and the result was in my post yesterday. I dwelled on it all the way to work, composing my thoughts to write in my blog. I wasn't in a good place and I was getting more upset with each stop light. I was late for work and didn't have time to jot down my blog. I kept busy all morning which was a good thing, because it helped to diffuse some of my anger. By the time I wrote down my thoughts, while still upset, I had settled down some and after I wrote and read and reread my words, I started to calm down even more. I am so thankful to be able to blog, I'm proud to have stuck with it, because it's a tremendous aid. I'm definiately reaching out, expressing my emotion, if only to myself. I see the struggle, the irony, the defeat, the determination, the success and realize it's all temporary. Things change ... sometimes within a short period of time and sometimes it takes longer than we think we can hold out ... but amazingly we do. I realize now that disappointment is what gives us another chance to do something a little better.
After I completed my blog post on my lunchhour, I was catching up on MFP, filling in my food entries. For some reason, I was curious to see how many calories were actually burned walking, so I plugged that in. I still wasn't feeling well and I hadn't intended on walking, but just wanted the information. Low and behold, it posted that I had walked 30 minutes and burned 109 calories and then I saw that someone posted great job and I immediately had my motivation to head to the mall and get in a lunchtime walk.
On the way home from work I realized that I hadn't coughed a lot during the day and wondered if I was feeling better? It had been so long. When I got home, I found that Gary wasn't feeling well ... oh great, are we going to keep passing this around? I took it easy and went to bed early, looking forward to having a long weekend since it was a Friday I didn't have to work.