Wednesday, September 26, 2012


I've really been trying to fight this bug I have with all I've got by pretty much ignoring it and doing what needs to be done.  I've even tried to get a little walking in, mainly because of a challenge I'm in on MFP.  However yesterday when I walked any distance at all I found myself out of breath and a tightness in my chest.  Hence, time to head to the doctor.  I called when the office opened and was able to get a 10:00 appointment.  I'm now taking an antibiotic and the doc says I should feel better in a few days.  I sure hope so or my plan is to spend the weekend in bed.  I'm so worn out, I may do that anyway.

I guess it's a natural reaction when you aren't feeling well to find some comfort or a diversion in something else ... but why is it that the majority of time that something else happens to be food.  When lunch rolled around and I didn't have anything in the office to eat, I knew I be heading out into the cold, damp streets in search of comfort.  A cold crisp salad wouldn't cut it and neither would a sandwich ... I wanted something warm and coating.  Why is that?  Macaroni and Cheese, Mashed Potatoes, Homemade Noodles ... that all sounded so soothing.  Good thing I couldn't get any of those things within walking distance.  I ended up with chili which wasn't too bad of a choice, but I found myself wanting more.  Several times during the afternoon, thoughts turned to munching ... I guess it was a diversion mechanism and one that I thought would make me feel better.  I also knew that was dangerous and I fought it off.

Dinner wasn't very exciting or comforting, just nourishing so I found my comfort in the evening lying on the couch, dozing through the premieres that I had looked forward to watching.  I just keep telling myself ... it's going to get better.

1 comment:

Bernice said...

Yes it certainly does. So isn't it feed a cold and feed a fever? Feed depression. Feed happiness. Feed I don't know everything?? Not anymore. Because you will feel better. And when you do you will feel so much better because you didn't let that get in the way of you goals!!