Disappointing

I remember some weeks back writing about those blogs that I was reading and then all of a sudden *poof* no more updates. I wondered what happened and thought how sad. As the joke goes ... now, I am one!

I know I haven't posted in a while. But you don't post when you feel like you're not doing well and continuing to slip. You don't want to paint a picture of gloom and doom. You want to be the positive one, the motivating one, the one whose blog is worthy of reading.

I think now those are the times you should write for you and not someone else. You need to point out the shortcoming and the problems but also in the next breath give yourself some encouragement and reason for continuing on.

I have been having trouble controlling my eating the last few weeks. I have gained 5 1/2# in the last two. While I thought I was somewhat in control (at times), it's obvious I wasn't. That can change and it will change. I do not want to give back any more than I already have which is about 20%. I want to continue losing and be absolutely giddy when I try on summer clothes.

One of my philosophies when I started was that it was okay if there wasn't that much on my plate at a meal, I was going to have another meal in just a few hours and it would taste MARVELOUS. Here lately, I seemed to have forgotten that and acting like what I was having was my LAST meal so I better chow down.

Late last night I wanted a peanut butter sandwich so bad but I resisted, telling myself that breakfast wasn't that far away and that I should head to bed and I could have that sandwich for breakfast. That's exactly what I did and I have been satisfied all day today, eating what was planned and looking forward to the next meal.

I hope I'm back on the road. Stay focused, Sheilah!