WELL ... DARN!

I didn't post yesterday.  Not my plan, but things happen.  Yesterday wasn't a good day from the beginning.  I felt rushed and the mood must have been set from the time my feet hit the floor and I couldn't shake it.  I had planned on working yesterday and then we were going to leave for Maryland when I got off work.  Then, it was that I was going to work until noon, Gary would pick me up and then we'd head to ... to, I took any extra day of vacation and we could leave whenever we got ready.  Well Gary had another night where he didn't sleep well and was up early which meant he was ready to go before I even got up.  I can't do things well when I'm rushed. 

I had worked on my class blog Tuesday night trying to get it updated before we left which meant no packing got done until yesterday morning.  I'm glad that my goal of getting organized this year paid off that clothes were washed and ironed and hanging in the closet just waiting to be thrown into a suitcase.  I did well with my meals on Tuesday ... only having soup and salad for dinner when I was eyeing Gary's choice of Country Fried Steak on the menu but went with my first choice.  Yesterday, how'd I do ... not so well with eating on the road and my mood being ... well, moody.  Without a computer, I also didn't getting anything logged in because of lack of effort or a difficult factor in maniputing data in my new phone.  Whatever the excuse, things didn't happen according to plan.

We're now here and I'm hoping I can turn things around and act like it's just any other day.

*POOF*

Got up yesterday not ready to start off a new work week after having four days at home ... and what seemed to be four productive days. But to do the things we want to do, a paycheck helps. The two people that I support are both gone this week, so that makes it even tougher but it'll be a short week for me ... so deal with it ... Sheilah. 

I've been on a somewhat high because of getting organized and just the ability to have a "do over" in the new year and being able to get back on track. The mood started to falter after finding out that an airline reservation for my boss was booked on the wrong day. I don't know if it was my mistake, the travel agency's mistake or my boss gave me the wrong date ... but it was a screw up at anyone's hands and my emotions took the responsibility. Sometimes things can be rectified but the bad thing here was that on the day he needed to travel, there weren't any seats available in the class he wanted to be in. When I informed him, he was upset but a lot less than I thought and he didn't put blame on anyone, he just wanted to get it fixed. I stewed about it most of the day. When talking to Gary, he said don't sweat the small things ... but it seems like nothing is small to me, especially if it affects someone else. 

BUT ... good news, I weighed in last night with a two pound loss. That did increase my spirits while still wondering how I pulled that off. I was so out of it over the holidays. Not to the point of giving up but I did lose focus and didn't blog like I intended and was pretty frazzled and in a weaken state when tempted. But, no need to look back ... I lost and it's time to move forward.

GOING WELL

I stepped on the scales when I finally got up and going yesterday and liked what I saw.  I don't know if I'll have a loss tonight at TOPS tonight because our last weigh-in was 12/17 and I have no idea what I weighed then but I was down from what I weighed January 1st at home, so that shows progress.  But, it doesn't matter because tonight is a brand new start.

Yesterday was kind of a lazy day ... nothing specific on the calendar.  I knew we'd settle in to watch the COLTS game but that was about it.  Writing down items on my "to do" list, however, proved to be helpful and I did get some things done so I felt a sense of accomplishment.  I am calmer, a little less frazzeled, and happier. In the past there would be fleeting thoughts about doing this or that but when it's there in black and white, it's getting done instead of putting it off.

Gary wasn't feeling well, so I fixed lunch and picked up dinner after going to 6:00 p.m. mass.  Since I was in charge, I fixed and picked things that I knew would fit into my plan.

TOO BUSY?

I knew I was going to be busy yesterday.  I wanted to keep it that way not to be bored.  Gary had a knot meeting at the house and I do not have the same fascination with his hobby as he does, so I had planned to stay busy with running errands, shopping and checking things off my "to do" list.  I should have put update my blog on the list.

I was able to knock several things off the list that took some time and actually did forget about this blog, although I spent a couple of hours on our class blog since I hadn't updated it since a month after our class reunion last June.  I guess I was setting priorities.

I have leaned to a favorite place for lunch when eating out because of a certain salad they have but I was no where close to this restaurant when out doing my errands yesterday so I opted for McAllister's where I got their "pick two" of a bowl of tortilla soup and a 1/2 cheese and bacon baked pototato.  It's on my plan and worked with the bowl of chili and sandwich I had from Gary's lunch leftovers which I had for dinner.

I'm still having a little trouble with the tools I know that will help me on MFP.  I can't seem to get my food logged in on the same day I eat it and now I'm off a day with my blog but I DO feel like I in a better place than I was last month.  The best thing is that I will have my first weigh in of the year at TOPS tomorrow which will really be a starting point.

MUDDLING ALONG

Yesterday wasn't any big whoop ... or ooops, either.  I guess that makes it a good day.  I did opt to go out to lunch due to having to make a bank run.  Paradise Cafe is right across the street so I had my half of a turkey cranberry sandwich and onion soup.  The soup sure tasted good with it so cold outside.  I had to walk a several blocks both ways, so maybe I burned off some extra calories shivering.  This is the place that always gives a free cookie with your meal.  It remained on my tray as I left.

I'm leaving things unchecked on my "to do" list which isn't exactly what I envisioned in this getting organized plan, but I do check off at least one or two a day and sometimes things from the day before ... so things are getting done.  Like I said yesterday, it just going to take time in getting into the groove.

Small Steps

It was hard going back to work yesterday after being off for four days.  Those four days consisted of staying at home with no travel involved which was a nice change.  It's strange that my retirement goal is to do lots of traveling and I do like to stay on the go ... but I guess you CAN get too much of a good thing.  I was able to get some things accomplished and realized there is always something to be done in the house.

As I mentioned it's my goal in 2013 to get a little more organized, so that I won't feel so overwhelmed and feel like I'm spinning my wheels or going in circles and end up stopping like I'm in a rut.  I wanted to start using a "to do" list, so that I can not only see that things are being accomplished but to know the things that need action and not forget about them until I'm in a crunch.  I did well on New Year's day accomplishing three tasks that I set for myself.  Yesterday didn't go that well but still there was still some success.  I now find I can't just keep them in my head, I have to actually write them down to check them off.  I got a cute little notebook from my Secret Santa at work that I can use. 

I stuck to planned meals yesterday so no mindless snacking.  I was tempted to ditch the frozen dinner I brought for lunch and go out and get something, but knew how important it was to stick to the original plan, just to get in the groove.  So all in all, I'm moving along in the right direction.

MINIMAL DAMAGE

The New Year is here and I'm setting out to work a plan that will help me find success.  Yesterday was a good day.  I believe I ate well, even though my calorie intake was a little over my goal ... but things happen.  I still feel more in control that I have been in weeks and that's a good thing.  I passed up breadsticks when we went to lunch.  Something my willpower has been lacking lately and I also walked passed our new candy dispenser with M&M's yesterday without much trouble ... although one time, I did get a little too close but backed off immediately.

My goal, which is not necessarily a resolution, is to get a little more organized in 2013.  Most of the time I feel my life is going way too fast and is pretty chaotic.  I need more balance and serenity.  I also want to be a happy person and stress and hurriedness (I guess that's not a word, I got squiggly marks under it)  can take away from that.  I'm starting to reread the Happiness Project and see if that helps.

Onward to success.